There is nothing more delicious than quality bulk foods at discount prices. Bags of kraft-cheese (they never give you enough in the little packets #dontJudgeMe), unlimited amounts of sour patch-kids and tasty little red and blue hockey players are incredibly difficult to put down.
Last night I hit #rockBottom after consuming a vast quantity of candy, for the second day in a row. I threw out a whole bag of canadian runts (they suck anyway) while in the midst of the worst sugar-induced headache. I felt like I was literally going to have a heart-attack.
The funny thing is, I know how bad eating garbage like that is for you. I know how bad it screws up your metabolism, how bad it is for your cells who aren't evolutionary evolved to handle the influx of cheap energy. On top of that, I know first hand how bad it makes me feel after eating it.
It is hard to stop.
Ellie yells at me and tells me to stop going back into the candy jar. But as long as their is candy in the jar, I will keep going back. Every time I go to the kitchen, I grab a handful.
I am actually addicted to sugar.
I know I have an addictive personality by nature. I go all in on whatever I find interesting. Sometimes it is constructive, like when I am training for a big race. Sometimes it is not, like when I get back into games like World of Warcraft and abandon all responsibility because I am busy grinding out dungeons for gear.
I need to swing back into fitness, into an active lifestyle and eating healthy all the time. No more Binge Wednesday, no more candy and cookies, or cookies with candy.
I've been feeling like garbage and I only have myself to blame.
Jon,
Believe me when I Say I’VE SOOOO been there. So very many times. A few months ago (maybe you’ll remember) I decided to be strict with myself for a full month and committed to completing the Whole30. It’s not a diet, not a cleanse… more of a challenge. The most IMPORTANT part of me doing this, wasn’t even the 30 day commitment to eating good, wholesome food. It was reading the book that created the challenge. It’s call “It Starts with Food”. It’s not so much a guide to the program as it is the reason why the program began. The book breaks down the reason for our addictions to these foods, how the industry banks on our addiction, and how to free yourself from it. It literally changed my life and helped me view food as “fuel” and I was finally able to break free and get control! I’m not saying you need to commit to the Whole30, but I definitely think you should check out this book! It was such a good read!
http://whole30.com/
I think that is an absolutely awesome idea. I checked out their website and I already really like what I am reading. Looking over the grocery list of the available foods is exactly what I had been thinking about moving towards too!
Thanks so much for the support, it means a lot to me knowing that I have someone who’s been through it all, right with me as I fight to keep the progress going. I am looking forward to our first race together 🙂
Sorry Jono, you got my addiction to sugar gene. Thats why I have to give up cookies and candy and especially cookies with candy on top all together every so often, for the biblical 40 days! Cut down during the Holidays and then go cold turkey until the spring. In the meantime, I still have a jar of turkey joints from last year – Dad
Yeah I think getting through the holidays without losing more ground is going to be my challenge, though it certainly helps having the whole family be more active. Makes leaving my running shoes at home not an option anymore!
I truly know how an addict feels – I can actually feel myself getting sucked back into the downward spiral when I eat the junk. If you get the book, I’d be interested in it. There has to be someway to break the cycle. But seriously, if you’re gonna eat junk, at least eat high quality junk like lindt chocolate or your mother’s apple pie.